I Am Not Heartbroken

Even though there is enough to break any heart

I am not heartbroken even though there is a human divide on the planet rooted in perceived differences, because my heart knows we are more alike than different. Loving one another keeps my heart alive.

I am not heartbroken even though many of my elders have passed over to the other side. They gather next to me, moreso when I remember to invite them over, infusing my open heart with their love, wisdom and cosmic energy. 

I am not heartbroken even though I have experienced trauma. I am rooted in resilience. As I conjure the memories and tell my stories, I transform the pain with forgiveness.

I am not heartbroken even when people disappoint me. I choose growth, seeking wisdom and understanding.

I am not heartbroken even though my kidneys hold deep sadness, the place where it is stored like old medicine. As I release the pressure valve, sadness leaks out, replaced with joy. Peace. Contentment.

I am not heartbroken even though most of what I took for granted is upended. My heart is on fire when I use my voice with conviction.

I am not heartbroken even when old things – beings, beliefs, bureaucracy dies. My heart is strong, made stronger with the conviction that we are a collective consciousness moving toward something new and better.

I am not heartbroken even though I am hurt. Hurting is part of the human condition. My heart comes equipped with the ability to heal after a break, like bones.

I am not heartbroken even when I am not chosen, even though I am a Leo and an Enneagram Seven. I’m supposed to crave the stage and popularity. My elder heart no longer requires these things. My heart beats faster at the sight of a new birth – a baby human or a baby crane.

I am not heartbroken even when my children are hurting. I am reminded that they get to experience everything for themselves in this lifetime. It is happening for them, not to them. My heart hurts and then my love for them blankets their pain.

I am not heartbroken even when humans act in deplorable ways. After anger and disbelief comes compassion and action, inspiring love and commitment.

I am not heartbroken. I am heart open. This is my choice.